Hmm let's start our or -mine to be- exact on what I expect about people's thoughts about me.

1. I'm kind of kerek ( my friend's first comment on me ;/ )
2. I'm fatttt! Duhhh
3. I'm a waster (if there's such of word lol)
4. Lazy O;
5. Show-off.
6. Miss wannabe pretty =.=
7. weird?
8. Hypocrite (my word-of-the-day learnt)
9. there's more.. but ain't remember it. guhhhh
10. else? Note me!!

I don't know.. but these are my thoughts about me. Maybe some of it you guys might agree on. Yes, it's okay. I understand.
And also, maybe these things make me no fun to you guys. I can see the way you guys react to me. Or am I just being cocky? Molla :( I can see myself not smiling to you when you are looking at me. Yeah.. I'm a moron by the way I did it. I KNOW!
To be honest, I found out that it's hard for me to smile except for some occasions / scenes / acts. When you spontaneously smiled at me, I'M SORRY for not replying those beauties. I can't. My smiles aren't perfect. I've been notified once when there's a good friend of mine said, she's kind of creep out by the way I smile ( my smile aren't smiling). You understand me right? If you do, TQ.

Now, i'm complaining bout a friend of mine who didn't eversowhat want to follow me on T! OMG that's just.... ASDFGHJKL!? I'm sorry if you are reading this. I'm revealing some of me. I can't express my thoughts and feelings right infront of you. I just can't!! I feel stupid if I did! ;( Yes we do need friends to share our problems but i'm not it. I can't. I JUST CAN'T!! I only live for listening to problems. Expressing my feelings only can happen on my... tearing and mocking. 

Ps; I'm hurt because of what had happened on T. Ugh Seriously I'm HURT! Maybe she didn't know my account name or whatsoever but still... DUDES! Recommend me to her (yet no one did for now). I'M CRUSHED INSIDE! ALIVE!!! ;(((((((((
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